Alright

So so far I have failed. I smoked a few cigarettes over the weekend, I don't know why, but I just wanted to. I'm very dissapointed in myself though, so I guess that's a good start.

I also CAN NOT stop myself from eating lately. Like I KNOW that I shouldn't eat tortilla chips by the handful, or 4 donut holes, or 3 brownies (they were small), or whatever else, but I just can't stop myself from doing. It's like I think to myself AS I'M EATING "I shouldn't be doing this" and then I go and grab another. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?